The Unseen Path Of Mental Health

I have been walking with the Lord for some time now, so you would think that I would have realized that something wasn't quite right. But I didn't know that anything was wrong and because I was alone a lot, neither did anyone else. I began to associate fear with my relationship with God, I mean it's obvious when you read the Bible, depending on where you are in your walk, there might be some scriptures that you struggle with. There are some scriptures that are hard to chew on, let alone, to swallow.

Matthew 6:33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well, was that scripture for me. I feared this scripture as well as other biblical truths because of what I believed to be true in my mind at that time. I didn't find out until later that I had some mental health issues that caused a lot of my fears, beliefs and confusing behavior. I don't care how soft spoken a scripture was, for me, fear was associated with it and my relationship with my Heavenly Father at that time on my mental health path (that I had no idea, I was on).

Thankfully, because of God's tender mercy and love for me, this same scripture that brought me so much fear, was the same scripture that God used to confirm my relationship with the man that He had for me to marry. It's amazing how God can bring everything in life together at the right time and to began to heal. My wonderful husband knows, cares and keeps a watchful eye on me, making sure with God's guidance that I have what I need and that I'm on the mend. I didn't see this coming, but God knew. Did I ever think that I would have to take a walk down this road? No, but God was and is with me even on the unseen path of Mental Illness.